2011 is gone, 2012 will be here

In 2011, I have had my share of ups and downs.  I have been down and out.  People have wrote and talked about me.  At one point I felt lost and out of place around my family, and even some of my friends.  

But Dear God, I'm here!

This year has taught me a lot of things, and I was both humbled and grateful.   I accept everything that happened to me in 2011, and have no regrets about it.  There is a reason that I went through the burning sands in 2011.  The struggle is going to make me stronger.  The changes will be coming in 2012.  A fresh start awaits me.  A new day has begun.   I have learned more about me this year than any other year in my years on this side of the dirt.  This year, I have learned what made me tick, and learned to stop holding my tongue (like I ever stopped in the first place).   

I stopped doing New Years Resolutions a long time ago because I will always be broken by the time my birthday comes around in April.  I have my lifemap posted to my wall, and every goal marked off.  Things that I did not complete in 2011 will be done this year.  I have a dream to be my own boss, and that will take fruition this year.  


(ame futte chi katamaru) Literally: after the rain, earth hardens 
This means: Adversity builds character./After a storm, things will stand on more solid ground than they did before.

This year, 2011, was my season of rain.  In 2012 my earth will harden under my feet and I will be standing on solid ground.  If you loved me, I loved you.  If I was your friend or family, then I will continue to be the same person.   If you talked about me, good or bad, I see it as free publicity.  If you hated me, you probably didn't understand me or didn't take the time out to get to know me.